I was introduced to word mindfulness in 2004. I was walking through one of the most painful times in my life and feeling very lost. I was recovering from two pregnancy losses, miscarriages or baby deaths as I like to refer to them, 3 months apart, and trying to hold down a very demanding social work job which I loved very much.
I was sure of one thing, in 20 years, when I told my story of loss, I was not going to be in a state of shock and still grieving as if I had just experienced my baby’s deaths yesterday. I was not going to walk through this pain unconsciousness and unaware. I was going to feel.
I created a sign and put it on the wall in front of my desk. It said:
I am aware of how I feel.
I am aware of my thoughts
I am aware of my surroundings
I am aware
I then made a self care plan of what I would do everyday. It said:
Everyday I will walk outside
Everyday I will feel my feelings
Everyday I will remember to breathe deeply
Everyday I will write in my journal
I shared what I was doing with my therapist and she said I was being mindful, “mindful?” I questioned. She explained mindfulness was being with each moment without trying to be somewhere else, it was about meeting myself with love and compassion. I told her I had been practicing this way of life for 10 years and never knew there was a “name’ for it.
2004 was a very profound time in my life. I deepened in character more than I could have ever imagined. I walked through a horrible time, but I learned woven within the fabric of my loss was the most intensely beautiful threads of gold I had ever seen. This is when soul nourishment became a way of life for me. I learned I was the most important person on the planet and I was no longer willing to compromise my well being.
Recently I birth Soul Care University, a virtual center where one can learn the skills needed to care for themselves at the soul level. In 2004, I made a vow to myself that I would share what I learned about self and soul care. I would never keep my journey a secret, my mission was to share my stories as teaching tools for others, especially women who were tired, suffering in silent, and feeling beat down by life.
Here I am quietly sharing my stories to all who want to listen, learn and be inspired. As Maya Angelou said, “Wouldn’t take nothing from my journey now”.
Here are 5 Ways Mindfulness Saved My Life:
Mindfulness living reminded me that I am love and love is all there is.
Mindfulness reminds me, slow and steady always wins.
Mindfulness living reminds me that my life is a gift no matter what.
Mindfulness living reminds me to appreciate everything.
Mindfulness living has taught me it’s okay to feel.
As with all things, I am a work in progress. Some days are easier than others but always there is a fresh new day to start again.
I invite you to learn more about Soul Care University and check out our recent e-courses and programs. We are small, but our heart is huge. I am working on a new e-course I Know I Will Fly, Sacred Healing Rituals for Pregnancy Loss and a few others. Looking forward to seeing you at Soul Care U.