There is a Divine unfolding to our lives. I must admit this has been a very difficult truth for me to surrender too. “You mean no matter how hard I wish, cry, scream, bribe, and try to manipulate the Universe, everything in my life is going to unfold in its Divine time?” Well that just sucks!
I thought for sure if I visualize my dreams, say my affirmations and reprogram my subconscious, I would get what I want, when I want it. I can not tell you how many years I convinced myself that the Universe was rewarding my good behavior and positive thoughts with material possessions and good jobs. All was right with the world when I was getting what I wanted and I could see my results. When things begin to “slow down” or not look like I wanted it to, all I needed to do was shift my thinking, focus on my new goals, implement a few controlled strategies and all would be well. After all, this way of manifestation seemed to work for me in the past.
Success in life was attached to quantifiable measurements, like how much money I was making, likes on my facebook pages, and being able to manifest what other systems labeled as successful. This way of moving through life has shifted for me and SURRENDERING has taken its place. Michael Beckwith calls this stage of life, CHANNELING. He explains, and I paraphrase, it is when we make the transition from, I can achieve it, if I can dream and see it, to, I don’t need to see it to believe it, because I surrender to the sacred unfolding of my life. It is about letting go of control. Big breath here…..
“You mean someone’s 21 day plan for success is not going to work for me, even though it seems to work for everyone else.” Well that just sucks! I was really counting on following that rule book to make life easier for me.
Living a heart centered life is no joke, it is not for the the weak and closed hearted. Living a heart centered life requires the courage to run in a different direction than the herd ( my dad’s favorite saying) and get into MY life’s flow. Being with those parts of myself that are resistant to this way of life has been heart opening, humbling and transformational.
Living a heart centered life, has required a consistent commitment to deepening my relationship with me and staying focused on my personal development, by challenging my inner conversations and questioning the stories I have been listening to for years. I must add, meditation is really important and listening and studying various spiritual teachings I resonate with.
For now, there is no more forcing, pushing, striving, or manipulating anyone or anything for a desired result. I am learning to wake up every morning and say, “how can I serve today, show me Universe how I am to shine my Light… I surrender”. I then notice any resistance coming up and meet those parts of myself with compassion. This process is helping me open to the Divine unfolding of my life. And yes, there are days when that just really sucks!